Passion for Christ

"The one that is meant for us is going to be the hardest to get, the hardest to keep, and the hardest to accept because through all that the love will grow stronger. Love wasn't made to be easy, otherwise we wouldn’t end up with the right person. We would end up with the first one who comes along. By struggling we single out the wrong ones and realize who really is the one." ~ Eletheowl

Long day. Today I didn't sleep in school at all except during homeroom (no teacher) and Chemistry, the last period.

No teacher as well. Hahaha. Today I was a more focused person, and I'm actually really pleased with myself. Finally am making significant improvement in catching up on my Amaths (no thanks to Mr Ang zzz).

Friends had CCA so I went straight home after school ended @ 3pm. Initially wanted to stay in school to do work and revise some more, but somehow I just felt mad lethargic so I went home. Thought of sleeping the whole day because I was that tired, but I didn't.

Instead, I made myself a late lunch at home. Found bits of stuff to cook here and there. So pleased with myself hahaha.

Don't know why but today there's been a lot of frustration in my heart.

Even though I liked how focused I was in class today, beneath all that I felt really frustrated with myself.

Maybe that was why I was so focused today? It could be the frustration that I've yet to really buck up in catching up in Amaths, that I've yet to quit being lazy, that I've yet to really make some significant change in my attitude towards work.

But being driven by such an emotion still doesn't feel good at the end of the day, no matter how productive I was.

When I got home, I just shut myself in my room and the first thing I subconsciously grabbed from the bookshelf was my bible. Plopped down on my bed and I just sang (shouted?) my heart out, and it was all songs of worship. Got to admit that it's a much better alternative than screaming at people/redundant objects hahaha. It took away much of my frustration. Prayed for inner peace, guidance, wisdom and whatnot. Read a chapter in the bible before leaving my room to resume my daily schedule.

I left my room feeling so free.

Sometimes we Christians tend to forget that in times of such frustration and need of comfort, the Word of God and His presence will always be able to bring such peace. Over the weekends I've learnt so much and even though there will always be moments where you just feel so sian of everything, all we need is to find rest in God like never before.

Because God's love is unfailing. He can't get anymore real than that.

p/s: On Good Friday, am gonna go watch Passion For Christ with Coralites in prayer group!

Venue is either @ Ivan's, Jekee's or my house. Nick screened the crucification scene of Jesus during cell last Saturday and I was crying throughout. I never knew Jesus died in such injustice. If our plan for Friday goes smoothly, I am sure God will move so mightily and the people in our prayer group will get ignited once more with passion for Christ. (:

p/p/s: We won Zhonghua Sec's senior team (we won their junior team in the first round) last Friday night!

Hahaha very tense that night because it was a fight for pride. The opposing team confirm want to kill us because we won them before, yet if we lose we'd lose our pride. It was a good debate. I enjoyed it. (: